Hmm, am I a giver or a receiver? I know I’m more comfortable giving than receiving. As I mentioned a few days ago in my 3 of Wands essay – I’m not comfortable admitting when I need help or accepting it when it’s offered. In this case the help might be more financial or practical in nature than the energetic assistance provided in the 3 of Wands. But it’s still a focus on assistance.

Do I give or receive? Probably more give than receive, and I don’t’ want to make it sound like I’m the soul of generosity. It’s just that (as I’ve mentioned) I’m not very good at asking for or accepting help from others. And I’ve come to realize that in some way it creates an imbalance. To me that is what the scales represent in this card. We have to keep the scales balance – to be a recipient as often as we are a giver. If I cannot ask for or accept help then I am short-changing my friends. If I feel good be able to give aid to my friends then wouldn’t they feel good being able to assist me? By not giving them this opportunity am I creating a power imbalance and creating control issues where none need to be?

I’m starting to think I use my unwillingness to ask for assistance or help as a way of feeling superior. Sort of an “I don’t owe anyone anything”. But is that healthy? If a relationship is about give and take then by not taking I create an imbalance. And how can a relationship be healthy if it’s imbalanced? I guess I have to work on creating a balance within myself about this issue and then focus on balancing my relationships with others. No small task, I must say.