Today’s Queen of Coins/Pentacle reversed was an intriguing message.  Traditionally the Queen of Pentacles represents wealth in material things, cultivated relationships and experiences, practicality and comfortableness with wealth.  This is a woman who knows what she wants and knows how to use it.  Reversed it can indicate becoming removed from relationships, perhaps becoming so absorbed in having things and acquiring wealth that one becomes aloof and estranged from loved one.  Perhaps it also indicates a discomfort with money and wealth.

Looking at the fox queen on the Magical Forest card she seems to be using the pentacle as a shield, protection from the slings and arrows of the world.  The well-dressed and well-accessorized lady on the Vanessa card looks a touch haughty and arrogant, almost a bit too confident of herself.  She might be a good person at heart but it’s a tad hidden beneath her aloof exterior.

I think this is one of the issues I’ve been struggling with quite a bit lately.  I keep saying I want to start doing more professional Tarot readings but deep down I’m still al little uncomfortable asking for payment.  More than that I think this card is reminding me that my discomfort with wealth and my inability to value my own skills is one of the reasons I have such a difficult time searching for a new job.  I just have this deep insecurity that I’m not worth a better salary or a better job for that matter.  Somehow despite all my accomplishment and skills, I have some of my parent’s “I’m worthless and cursed” approach to life.  I have to shake myself free from it.  And in reality, I’m the only one who can break me free from these shackles.

I need to reverse this energy and reconnect with that side of myself that believes I deserve more in life.  I deserve to be happy with my job.  I deserve to be well paid for what I do.   I deserve to have a comfortable life that allows me to offer help to others in need.  I deserve to have wonderful friends and rich experiences.  And to help me accomplish one of these goals I am flying to Las Vegas on Wednesday to attend the International Fashion Doll Convention.  This event brings fashion dolls collectors (Barbie, Fashion Royalty, Tonner, Gene, ball joint dolls (BJD)) from all over the country and the world together for 4 days of merriment and craziness.  I can’t wait.  I think this will help me charge the batteries and relax a bit.