I’m finding the imagery on the Guardian Tarot dark and moody but very interesting. The One Minute Tarot is simpler and brighter and both offer unique insights into the cards. Even with the differences in the style of artwork they both convey a message of trying to keep things afloat despite the turbulence going on behind the figure in the card. When I first saw the card the first thought that struck me is “I’m dancing as fast as I can” meaning I’m doing everything I can to keep things moving along. But how frightening it is to think that if I stop moving I’ll be overwhelmed

I drew the 2 of Pentacles reversed today. Some interpretations for this card reversed include: recognizing and affirming the need for a new security base; nurturing and confirming a particular direction that would help to establish a different pattern of stability in my life; choosing and affirming a new kind of groundedness or inner stability; rigidity; refusing to accept the inevitable; the balance shifts in an unexpected direction; caught off guard; wrong decisions are made due to confusion from stress and carelessness; long held positions can no longer be defended; anxiety in the face of change.

Anxiety in the face of change can certainly describe me. I have often joked that I hate change. But the reality is that change creates a real sense of anxiety in me. I like things to be stable and reliable (it’s probably why I’ve been able to stay with my hubby al these years). However life in my office has been extremely off-center lately. Ever since our new Exec took over things seem to be in a constant state of flux. For someone like me who prefers solidity and stability, this is a trial.

I think I need to either become better at dealing with unexpected changes and shifts in my life or I need to find a situation where I have more control over these changes. It is a question of being able to roll with the punches. I have become too rigid and that makes it more difficult to learn anything from these experiences. I need to hone my flexibility and be more like the reed that bends in the wind than like the oak that cannot bend and ends up being destroyed. I don’t necessarily like having to bend (it’s rather contrary to my nature). But it is a good life lesson.