When I first saw that I drew this card my immediate response was “oh my gosh, my flame is being extinguished”. And the more I thought about it the more I realized that is exactly how I’ve been feeling lately.

Traditionally the Ace of Wands can indicate the start of something new, exciting and passionate in life. Perhaps an opportunity for exploring a new path in one’s career or learning a new skill or finding something new that puts a spark in your life.

Now is one considers that reading Tarot cards is my craft (it certainly qualifies as a passion) then in light of this card being reversed, I am obviously not allowing that energy to manifest itself into my life. Or else I am afraid to let me light and energy shine forth. So why?

I really didn’t take this lightly. Over the past few days, weeks and even months I’m seeing a pattern emerge. It’s not necessarily clear but it is there. Since I’ve been recording my card of the day I’ve drawn a Two 11% of the time, a Page 12% of the time and a Knight 10% of the time. I’ve drawn Pentacles 23% of the time and Swords 32% of the time. Since August 1st I’ve drawn a reversed card 65% of the time.

To me this means I need to change my thinking patterns and ideation in order to manifest what is potentially available for me. The way I’m seeing this is that this energy and potential is blocked. I’m either not taking the right steps to bring it forth or I’m resisting it or something else is going on and until I straighten it out I can’t access this energy.

I know some people (most notably Gail Fairfield) don’t view reversed cards in a negative way. They view reversed cards as areas one need to focus on internally. So it all comes back to needing to create an internal shift. There may be external forces or situations that make is difficult for my flame to grow but it can only be extinguished if I let it happen.

As difficult as it can be to accept, I have control over my life (isn’t it easier sometimes to just let life happen) and if I don’t want to find my passion and energy snuffed out then I need to make changes. Whether these changes mean leaving my current job or modifying its scope is something I have to determine. But I can’t go on letting the status quo continue. That way lies madness (or at least a lot of boredom).