I’m still dealing with the fall-out of the past two weeks at work. Things are still rough. Folks were walking around looking rather shell-shocked. It’s pretty sad overall because it just keeps undermining the teamwork and professionalism that our Exec keeps touting. I have to wonder if he doesn’t see that everyone is watching what he does and using that as a guideline. “Do as I say and not as I do” just doesn’t work in parenting or management.

How interesting that one of the traditional meanings of the 3 of Swords is betrayal and feeling stabbed through the heart. That certainly describes one of the prevailing attitudes at work lately. It’s quite disheartening. But the fact is that this card is reversed which can suggest that there is an “alleviation of sorrow; pain is relegated to past memory; the heart tried by pain becomes stronger, an apparent loss turns out to be better off gone and new insights gained by overcoming grief.” I don’t know if the people who were terminated feel this way right now. They may eventually but I would guess it will take some time.

As for me, I think the 3 of Swords reversed is reminding me that it’s time to clarify my personal attitudes and opinions and to understand my beliefs in greater detail. It’s time for me to evaluate my attitudes about this job and make some changes. Although I don’t think I am in any immediate danger of losing my job, I have reached the point where staying at this agency is no longer worth the heartache it causes me. It makes me as sad to watch the ruination of this agency as it depresses me to watch the gentrification of my neighborhood.

I need to release my grief and just accept that I have reached the end of a cycle. Resisting it just delays the process. Moving on might open up new opportunities and bring me to a new level. If nothing else at least it will add some excitement to things and allow me to learn new skills and put mine to use.