Twos symbolize formation, polarity and the coming together of opposites.  Twos can represent the affirmation and confirmation of new directions that were begun at the Ace level.  Wands are usually associated with the element of fire, inspiration, energy, passion, feeling, enterprise, ambition, matters pertaining to the "spark of life".   The Two of Wands can symbolize saying "yes" to a new role, naming that new identity and claiming it for your own.

So what do I need to claim for my own?  I think I need to reclaim my spark, my passion in life.  Lately I've begun realizing that I'm wasting my time, energy and talents at my current job.  It's not that it's hard to do but it's not catching my interest and it's not what I want to be doing with my life.  I have to admit that it's also disappointing because it's not what I thought it would be, not what was promised to me (or maybe not what I expected).  I came in with such enthusiasm and excitement and once I realized how limited my focus is going to be I lost some of that enthusiasm.  I want to take a bite from the pomegranate and see the multitude of opportunities that lies in wait.  I want to pick up that wand and focus my energy, take on the world and do something useful and beneficial.  I am just not the type of person who can work at a job simply for benefits and money (although I'm not stupid enough to leave what I have until I've got something else lined up).

In some ways this is a very difficult and painful decision for me.  I've invested a lot of time and energy and my spirit into this agency, but I am beginning to realize that this really isn't the same agency I participated in as a child or began working at 14 years ago.  That is part of the cycle of life and I can resist as much as I want but change really is inevitable.  All I can do is take some control over the situation and make some plans and goals for how I'm going to move on to something different.

In the meantime one of the things I want to start to put more energy in is getting my Tarot business started.  I need to start really focusing on the wonderful worksheets and classes that Elizabeth Genco has been offering on marketing (http://buildyourmetaphysicalbusiness.com/).  She asks such questions as what type of client do you want and offers questions to help you figure that out.  Even if my answers turn out to be inaccurate at least the questions started me thinking about these issues.

I'm also beginning to realize that I don't have a lot of interest in pursuing an MPA.  I may do it anyway because I'm already half-way through the program (and it is interesting) but my initial enthusiasm is waning a bit.  Of course it's entirely possible that this is connected to my waning interest in my current job.  Perhaps once I find another job I'll be more excited about completing the MPA. 

At least I'm starting the dialogue with myself.  You know what they say about fixing the problem, the first step is admitting you have a problem.  Well I have a problem and I want to find a solution.  After all if I can't fix it then no one else can fix it for me.