The number 3 symbolizes the generative force, creative power, multiplicity, and forward movement.  They are about planning and preparing, putting the details into place before beginning the work.  Wands are usually associated with the element of fire, inspiration, energy, passion, feeling, enterprise, ambition, matters pertaining to the "spark of life".  They can refer to the growth and awareness of the self.  Wands are focused on discovering your true self, apart from others.

Hmm, my "true self", I don't even know what that means anymore.  Sometimes I think I've lost contact with my true self.  I look at photos of me as a child or I recall memories and I remember be so clear about who I was.  I never really fit in, although sometimes I desperately wanted to fit in, but I also was too stubborn to change much (must be my Capricorn Moon).  I realize that I must have been something of a trial for my friends on occasion because I could be relatively inflexible about some things, especially if I thought I was right.  It's as though the core me is still down (although sometimes she's hidden beneath layers of camouflage).  But I've been using some self-help books to help me find my true style, my true self and what I've come to realize is that at one time I was very in touch with that true self.  In sense of style I've always been a mix of classic and casual.  I loved nothing better than wearing a pair of boots, jeans and a blazer - especially if it was topped off by a peacap.  Then my friends started becoming more fashion and size conscious.  Issues like what size clothing we wore or what brand became important.  I still remember that if you wore Levi jeans with Converse sneakers you were top shelf in my neighborhood.  If you wore Lee jeans and Pro Keds you were second tier.  I don't think any of my clothes ever had a name attached unless they were hand-me-downs from someone else.  Although I do remember saving up my babysitting money to buy a pair of sky blue Pro Keds.  I felt so cool. 

I also had a quirky tendency to wear slacks and sweaters.  For example I remember going to a sneak preview of the movie Breaking Away with my friend.  We got free tickets for a Saturday morning show from PAL.  For some reason I still remember what I wore - a pair of forest green polyester slacks (I think they might have been Lee's Bendover slacks which were popular at the time) with a mint green crocheted V-neck sweater.  I'm pretty sure both pieces were donations from someone - either a cousin or one of my mom's friends of co-workers.  But that didn't matter to me, I felt classy in them.  Of course my friends teased me because I wasn't wearing jeans and a t-shirt.  My best friend at the time loved comparing clothing sizes because she was always a size or two smaller than me.  I was never sure why - she didn't look smaller than me.  In retrospect I realize that we had different builds - she was more of a classic pear shape and I was a rectangle (future apple) shape.  She has a more defined waistline then I did.  But as a teenager I felt that made me fat.  My body distortion issues had nothing to do with parents or Barbie or commercials and everything to do with my friend's opinions.

But maybe this card is a sign that I'm starting the work to get myself back on track to find my true self again.  I've had glimpses of her over the years but I can be easily distracted.  Instead of focusing on the inner me I was trying to dress up the outer me using seasonal color theory, various body line theories, style theories.  But the truth is that once I am back in touch with who I really am the rest will fall into place.  I am moving forward but I occasionally take steps back too and that's okay.