The number 5 represents the need for adjustment, some kind of change, or that added something that brings the situation out of balance again.  It represents the struggle and challenge of inner and outer growth; adapting to feedback about your action; working out the kinks.  Coins are associated with the material world, acquisitions of wealth and possessions, our connection to Earth and Nature, sensation, matters pertaining to the physical plane, the body, health and physical or sexual activities.  Coins can also be connected with practicality, groundedness and being realistic. 

How interesting that this card that often represents being financially challenged or in need.  I can easily see it referring to a financial struggle.  But right now this is not an issue in my life.  In that respect I am very lucky.  I have a comfortable lifestyle, not rich maybe but not poor.  But I think the real key to this card for me is about being willing to face the challenges head on and not stick my head in the sand and hope they go away.  After all that approach hasn't worked yet.  Of course that doesn't necessarily make it any easier to avoid the practice. 

It might be showing that I need to focus on the inner growth and struggle I'm going through.  I have to admit that each day I feel as if I'm struggling and fighting to reach a new level in my life.  It's as though I can sense all these things percolating beneath the surface but I haven't really focused on bringing them forth.  If anything I've been more in a state of avoidance.  I'm trying to avoid facing the inevitable or actually maybe what I'm trying to avoid is the need to move on and manifest changes in my life.  After all if we do not grow and change and incorporate new experiences and new knowledge into our lives then what is the point.  Staying in a state of stasis, stagnating, is like being in a state of suspended animation or even death.  After all isn't that what we fear most about death - being in a state of nothingness.  And if we never make changes in our lives or grow and expand our horizons then we stunt ourselves and it's almost like being nothing, being dead.

I don't want that anymore.  There is still so much I have to learn and experience and do in my life. I don't want to struggle every day just to maintain the status quo.  And right now that's exactly what I"m doing with my job.  I'm fighting to keep things the same and to what purpose?  The agency is going to change whether I like it or not.  My choices are to participate in the change and see if I can be part of the process or move on.  And even if I ultimately move on (which really seems likely) then at least while I'm there I can make sure I'm a positive and beneficial influence.  When I leave I want people to miss my contributions not to see it as "good riddance to bad rubbish".  I don't want to be someone who stayed to long at the party.  I want to be the person whose departure causes people to say"wow I wish she could've stayed longer".  And the only way I can do that is by struggling and facing challenges and manifesting wonderful, positive and amazing things in my life.