The number 5 represents the need for adjustment, some kind of change, or that added something that brings the situation out of balance again.  It represents the struggle and challenge of inner and outer growth; adapting to feedback about your action; working out the kinks.  Coins are associated with the material world, acquisitions of wealth and possessions, our connection to Earth and Nature, sensation, matters pertaining to the physical plane, the body, health and physical or sexual activities.  Coins can also be connected with practicality, groundedness and being realistic.  

I had an epiphany today that connects to the 5 of Coins.  A classmate asked me if I read Tarot Cards.  I was in the process of retrieving voice messages so I was distracted but replied that I did.  She said she'd always wondered about getting a reading but was afraid of hearing the future.  I told her that I didn't do those kinds of Tarot readings but that was it.  She then moved passed me down the hall.  After she walked away I realized that I could've handled it better.  She was obviously interested in Tarot.  Instead of replying in a distracted and dismissive way I should have given her a brief description of how I read Tarot cards and offered to do a reading for her if she was ever interested.  It would have taken just as much time but I would have given her a bit more insight into Tarot and possible gotten a client.

This connected to the 5 of Coins for me because it reminds me of the traditional imagery seen on depictions of the 5 of Pentacles - a poorly dressed couple limping along in the snow passed a church.  One of the interpretations for this card can be not seeking help or not seeing help that might be available.  But the flip side of that can be not opening your doors to help others.  I was like that church in how I responded to my classmate.  Instead of opening the door to this place of wonder, I just let her walk on passed.  On another level this card symbolizes my own changes when it comes to Tarot reading and my challenge to take myself more serious about it.

I have a tendency, which I've discussed before, to be dismissive of my own skills.  If it's something I can do then it mustn't be that big a deal.  But that's not necessarily true.  I am a fairly skilled Tarot reader and counselor.  And the only way I'll get better is practice.  The only way I can practice is if I actually do readings for people.  But how can I do readings for people if I shut them out all the time.  If I want to manifest a business as a Tarot reader and get myself out there in a real and practical way then I need to adapt my desires to action and take steps to bring it to fruition.  It's about me reaching outward and letting the world know that I am there to help.