The Chariot symbolizes being totally in tune with a fast-moving process or event; aware of the tolerances and limitations of the situation and understanding instinctively how to act and react in order to direct or affect movement from within. It can be about immersing yourself in the situation so you can exert control over it and direct its course. The more immersed you are in the transition or growth process, the more involved you are with the energies and harmonies of the change, the better you'll be able to see and direct them. As I look at the images on these cards, the first thing that strikes me is a sense of total unconcern. Despite whatever else might be going on around them (growing lions, unsecured wheels), the drivers are supremely confident of their abilities to handle the situation. Boy could I use that confidence in my life right, at work and in my personal life. I realized as I sat in Elizabeth Purvis' (The Marketing Goddess) meetup session on Monday that pretty much the only thing holding me back from starting my own Tarot business is fear. I'm afraid I won't be good enough or I'm afraid I'll be too good. I don't know which scares me more. But wouldn't it be wonderful to be able to walk away from this place and do something about which I can be passionate and interested. I use to feel that way about work but not anymore. There is too much chaos. In order to maintain a Chariot-like posture in my office I have to literally numb myself. I'm not actually confident or unconcerned, I'm just hiding my terror. These people are really crazy and I can't figure out what they want. I'm the child of an alcoholic, I learned how to read people early in life. And I can't totally read these people. Everyone has their own hidden agenda and I'm just not good at subtleties. I'm pretty much a WYSIWYG kind of gal. So I don't understand that Machiavellian mindset. At this point I'm just hoping I can hold on long enough to keep my head above water and do the dog paddle. Who the hell wants to live that way? Not me, that's for sure. Today was another odd day. One co-worker/friend share a conversation she had with out illustrious leader that just blew my socks off. He accused her of being cold and callous. Ironically, if you asked me to describe this woman's persona when we first met I would have said she was a Queen of Swords type. She seems unfriendly at first. But over time I have come to realize it's a defense mechanism. She is not the type to embrace you right away and invite you into her confidence. I'm actually the same way but I disguise my preference for privacy by throwing up a smokescreen of false intimacy. I share oddball stories about my family that give people the illusion they know me but in reality my deepest self is well hidden and protected. So I can sympathize with this woman. The reality is that these boys (and I use that word deliberately) are not comfortable with strong-willed, independent and strong-minded women. They want us to assume a more traditional female attitude and demeanor (we have one woman manager who cries at the drop of a hat and they love her). I'll grant that I'm probably oversimplifying things but that is certainly the sense. It's just a damn mess. I think The Chariot is trying to tell me that in general I need to take more control over things in my life. I need to really believe that I can handle whatever situations flow my way (to be quite honest, I usually do) and that I have the skills to chart my own course. Why should I be satisfied with following someone else's script? It's time I create my own map and decide how I want to follow it and where I'll end up in the end. To paraphrase Bob the Builder "Can I do it? Yes I can!"