The Magician is the 1st Trump in the Major Arcana representing yang energy and the masculine power. The Magician is also represented by the planet Mercury - ruling communication, wisdom, will, and action in all forms and phases. The Magician is often symbolic of having strength of will to create your own life; to make the magic real for you. This card symbolizes the ability to communicate and control your environment, to focus your energy and concentrate. The Magician is about making your will into reality, manifesting your hopes and dreams into your life. 
 
The figure on the Modern Medieval Magician reminds me of the Mad Hatter from Alice in Wonderland - a bit over the top, crazy and in charge of the insanity.  He also looks a bit demented - which I can identify with right about now.  The Tarot of Reflections Magician seems to be totally undistracted by the shadowy reflections flanking him.  His energy of totally focused on the objects arrayed before him.  It looks like he is keeping them in the air by sheer force of will - a testament to his determination and focus.  Both Magicians are able to maintain the environment they desire by strength of will, determination and drive.

How great to pull this card today.  It actually encapsulates what I've been realizing lately about my own life.  For some reason over the past few days I've been feeling more positive, more hopeful and energized about things.  I am  feeling more directed and goal-oriented.  I think it's connected to my time out of the office lately.  I've been conducting visits at a few agency sites to review records and my successful training workshop on Friday made me feel rejuvenated.  I'm excited and enthusiastic.  I'm also more confident that I can make the magic real for me.

My new focus has to be dealing with my heal issues.  I am overweight (and that's me being polite, technically I'm obese) and I have Type II diabetes.  It's complicated by the fact that the PCOS makes it very difficult to lose weight.  My goal is not only to lose weight but to get the diabetes so well controlled that I no longer need to take medication.  But in order to achieve these goals I have to be much more deliberate and focus on my diet and I need to exercise.  I always say "I'll do it tomorrow" (my procrastination skills are well honed) but tomorrow never comes.  The older I get the more difficult it will be to achieve these goals.  And I know that I can do it.

I could mean about the psychology issues behind my overeating (I'm definitely an emotional eater).  I could claim that I have no time to exercise - between work, school, family obligations and hobbies there aren't enough hours in a day.  There are many reasons why I can't do these things and only one reason why I should - because I'm worth it.  I need to value myself and know that I am worth treating well.  Why scarf down junk food and empty calories when I can enjoy tasty, healthy and good quality food?  Why shouldn't I spend a few minutes every day doing some type of simple, fun exercise at home (like bellydancing)?  The only reason is that I didn't consider myself worth the effort.  But I am!  I am worth it.  This is my change to address this issue in a focused, directed and planned way.  I've overcome so many obstacles at various points in my life and I know I can overcome this too.