Sixes symbolize the union of opposites, finding equilibrium, harmony in the face of constant change. Wands are associated with inspiration, energy, passion, feeling, enterprise, ambition, matters pertaining to the "spark of life", and the element of fire.

"You've met the challenge to your identity and come through it.  Now, the self you're presenting to the world is more confident and stable.  You feel more secure with your identity and sense of purpose or personal direction.  You're settling into the groove of being this self." - Gail Fairfield

"Victory; advancement realized through steady growth; pride in achievement; recognition; intuitively self-confident; ceremonial honors." - Caitlin & John Matthews

Looking at this card I am struck by two things - the sense of celebration on the Golden Rider and the mistiness on the Hallowquest card.  Both were appropriate today.  On some level one of the things we did today was find the way to triumph over the mists of the past.  I don't think the triumph was mine - in many respects I've already triumphed over some of the misty past in my life.  I think what I was able to do today is help my mother overcome some of hers.  

I think in some respects my mother didn't experience a lot of triumphs in her life.  She might have had some through her children but none of her own.  It's actually quite sad.  And I think the ghosts of her past haunt her still.  She seems to beat herself up quite a bit for things that she can't change.  I'm not saying that she didn't make mistakes.  Then again who hasn't made mistakes.  The reality is that it's in the past and it can't be changed.  It might be helpful to talk about it simple because it might help clear some things up.  I think before we can regain our equilibrium and create harmony in our lives we need to overcome whatever stands in our way.  And many times what stands in our way is our own inner demons and self-doubts.  We are all probably our own worst critics because we incoporate all those negative statements we've been fed over the years.  We start to believe all the bad press - that we're worthless, not good enough, not special.  The truth is we are all special in one way or another.  We are all good enough.  We might not be good at everything but I think each of us has some special gift or talent in life.  And the way to triumph over all those who tried to devalue us is by finding some way to express our gifts and talents.

Sometimes it's easier to say than to achieve.  Those nasty inner demons trip us up when we're not looking.  They undermine us when we're not looking.  We need to always be on guard against their divisive and negative influence.  If we're not careful they can undo all that we've achieved.  And that would be sad.

My mom needs some way to feel as if she can overcome her past.  I know that I can't make that happen for her, I can only help and support her in any way that I can.  The reality is that until she can let go of the past she will always be its prisoner.  Whatever memories and demons haunt her will not let her go.  She has to release them so that they can release her too.