The Wheel of Fortune represents the cycles of life, the seasons of the year.  It is the 10th Major Arcana card.  When it appears in a reading it often indicates a major change in circumstances brought about by outside influences.  This card suggests that an understanding of life's cycles and a willing to accept changes may be beneficial.  The Wheel of Fortune reinforces the idea that sometimes things happen as part of the natural cycle of life.  This card represents major changes in one's life, a life altering shift.  

This card is a reminder that there are always ebbs and flows in life.  Situations change and what was once popular becomes unloved and what was one considered a crazy idea gets embraced by society.  Lately I have been realizing that if we don’t allow the cycles of life to occur then we risk narrowing our field and stunting our growth.  I am the type of person who is resistant to change.  I may eventually whole-heartedly embrace a concept, idea or technology but before that happens I will dig in my heels and try my hardest to resist.  

I’m sure I’m not the only one who goes through this.  I’m starting to realize that it is fear that drives me.  In my childhood there was so much turmoil - we moved every two years or so and the fighting between my parents was terrifying to me.  It’s not that I don’t appreciate change - I enjoy technology as much as anyone.  It’s that I often think as a society we embrace change for the sake of change.  If it’s new it must be better and improved and that’s not always the case.  We also seem to charge ahead in pursuit of change without considering the potential ramifications and negative impact that may result.

Perhaps this is my Hierophant birth card kicking in.  I do tend to cling to traditions and embrace the old ways.  I love listening to stories of what my neighborhood was like at various points in time.  And I spend a lot of time mourning the loss of what it once was.  I also acknowledge that I can’t turn back the clock - no matter how much I wish I could.  So maybe my challenge when presented with a Wheel situation is to blend the best of the old and the new (putting my Temperance birth card to work).  I need to see what elements of the new may benefit me and blend well with my current beliefs, systems, concepts, etc.  It doesn’t have to happen all at once but at my own pace.  Once I get comfortable with that I may find change less daunting.

I’m also starting to realize (although I would never say this aloud at work) that I’m almost hoping I get laid off.  It would be something of a relief.  Don’t get me wrong, it would be a financial hardship but I can economize when the need arises.  Right now hubby had medical coverage so that wouldn’t be an issue (and that is always an issue) and I would be eligible for unemployment.  Maybe getting laid off would give me some breathing room to reassess and re-evaluate my goals and priorities.  Instead of just running to stay in place I can take the time to focus and determine what direction I should go in next.  

It might also give me a little space to explore my desire to become a professional Tarot reader.  It might not ever prove to be my primary source of income but it might become a profitable side line.  Right now I’m so focused on work and school that I just don’t have the energy to put into trying to create a business plan and marketing strategy - and I think they’re important.  

Maybe I need to become more like the figure in the Sorcerers Tarot card - facing the Wheel and allowing myself to be open to whatever possibilities turn up next.  I may never be as comfortable with it as the figure on the Book of Kaos card - actually being able to turn the wheel and initiate the change, but I hope I can grow more comfortable with it and able to embrace the opportunities it brings.