Aces symbolize beginnings, the start of something new and the seed of new growth.  Pentacles are associated with the material world, acquisitions of wealth and possessions, our connection to Earth and Nature, sensation, matters pertaining to the physical plane and the element of earth.  Pentacles can also be connected with practicality, groundedness and being realistic.  

Ace of Pentacles reversed may indicate being so focused on holding on to what you have that you have failed to recognize the needs of those around you, especially needs for material aid; a false or premature sense of security; extreme competition where financial gain is concerned; blinding ambition; and reluctance to “leave the garden” and make our own way.

When I look at this card I get a sense of resisting something that is being offered to me; refusing to manifest it in my life.  And I know exactly what that might be (or at least my opinion of what it might be).  I know things are getting very rocky in my agency right now.  I may or may not be one of the employees on the chopping block.  And yet, despite this knowledge, I have really started looking for another job.  It's as if I believe that by magickal thinking I can prevent this from happening.  As though I worry that looking for another job will create the very situation I fear.  But that's ridiculous.

All am I truly doing by this inaction and stubbornness is preventing myself from exploring new opportunities and possibilities.  I might find the perfect job for who I am right now.  Or perhaps as a result of looking and networking with others I might find alternative opportunities for manifesting prosperity and abundance in my life.  Maybe it's time for me expand my horizons and my experiences.  Maybe it's time for me to move on because I've learned all that I can learn in my current job.  This is such a scary concept for me because I like stability and dependability.  But enough is enough, even I at my most stubborn know that stagnation will occur if I try to cling on past my expiration date.  I have to admit that on some level I almost hope I am laid off.  Then the matter would be taken out of my hands.  But I also know that is the coward's way out.  And I've never considered myself a coward.

The combination of the two images - the prominent gold coin on the Arcus Arcanum card and the closed book on the Dark Grimoire deck both seem connected to my reluctance to put myself out there as a professional Tarot reader.  It's as if I'm afraid to ask others for money and I don't want to share the knowledge I've acquired over the years.  This is something I've been struggling with for several years.  And it stems from an underlying lack of self-confidence.  I still have some issues believing I'm good enough to deserve to be paid for doing readings.