Aces symbolize beginnings, the start of something new and the seed of new growth, feeling something new, maybe something you haven't felt before.  It might be a new emotion, a new relationship or a new awareness about an existing relationship.  The seed of love, anger, jealousy or another emotion has been planted.  Cups are associated with the element of water, with emotions, love, pleasure in life, matters pertaining to the unconscious, intuition and inner planes.   They represent the growth and awareness of the unconscious, emotional interactions and relationships with others.  Cups can also connect us with psychic activity and the Universe on an unconscious level.  The Ace of Cups traditionally refers to a new emotional connection, new insight about a relationship or new growth in an area that brings pleasure to your life. 

The Grail Tarot immediately connected me to the grail mythos and its sense of healing and wholeness.  I think the reason people cling to the legend of the Holy Grail is because it holds such hope and promise.  It's not just a sign of the potential of a new relationship or a some emotional connection.  It's also about reconnecting to the inner planes and our unconscious.  The Grail (whether in its Pagan or Christian incarnation) is not meant to be of this earth.  It is symbolic, mystical and other worldly.  We cannot keep it except in our hearts.  That is why it will never be found - because it is not meant to be incorporated on this earth.  It can represent different things to different people and as long as it never physically manifests it has the ability to change as needed.

So what is my quest?  What is my heart's desire?  What is it I've been seeking?  I don't know yet.  That is part of what this journey has been about for me.  This card connects to the card I drew yesterday - the Grail Seeker.  I think once I find the answers to these questions I will feel healed and renewed.  I'll be nourished from within because I will have found out what will heal my soul.  I think this is my chance to reconnect with what brings me joy. 

It may also be my chance to really work on improving my psychic skills or perhaps becoming more comfortable with them.  I've often felt like a fraud when I read Tarot because I have never felt that I had any psychic ability.  To quote Hermione Grainger in Harry Potter "it's all books and cleverness".  That's the story of my life.  I manage to accomplish things through books and cleverness.  When it comes to the Tarot and helping people, I don't think books and cleverness is enough.  Not that it's a bad place to start but I think learning to be more comfortable with my intuitive nature will help enrich the experience for me and for them.  I guess another factor for me is that I would think it's easier to help others heal if you've actually been able to heal yourself - at least a little.