Twos symbolize formation, balance, partnership, polarity and the coming together of opposites.  Twos can indicate that the focus can no longer be only on oneself; that there is another factor influencing the situation.  They represent the affirmation and confirmation of new directions that were begun at the Ace level.  Wands are usually associated with the element of fire, inspiration, energy, passion, feeling, enterprise, ambition, matters pertaining to the "spark of life". 

Claiming and validating yourself; saying "yes" to a new role that you've definitely decided to play perhaps after comparing and contrasting it with other possibilities; naming the new identity and claiming it for your own.

Balance and partnership are two things not very present in my life lately.  Well actually that's not entirely accurate.  The partnership piece is just fine.  It's the balance I'm not so sure about.  I've been feeling very uninspired to do anything.  Or maybe it's just that I'm not inspired by the things I "have to do" like schoolwork.  I have a paper that is overdue by a few weeks.  The professor is very understanding but I would really like to get this one done before the next one is due.  I've become a trifle disinterested in it.  I think that will pass.  Sometimes it's a seasonal phase the I got through - I just become disinterested in everything.

The image on the Fantasy Showcase Tarot was very intriguing to me.  It shows what looks like a chess king holding two scepters - one topped with an orb and one topped with a pointing finger, across his chess as if in a protective gesture.  The landscape before him looks like a chessboard with other pieces laid out - the knight, the castle, etc.  At the edge of his land, along the shore of a body of water are two pillars topped with large orbs.  The scene is reflected in the water but it is darker and instead of a sunlight sky we see a moon-dark one.  It is as thought things are not quite what they seem and the king is trying to protect himself.  Maybe he is marshaling his forces and getting prepared for the next phase of his plan.   Could that be what I am doing right now - marshaling my resources and planning for the next step.  If it's time for me to move in a new direction it might be telling me that I need to conserve my resources until it's time to take the next step.

The Holy Grail card shows what appears to be a priest or guardians standing in front of an arched gateway.  In this deck the suit of Wands is connected with Pagan esotericism.  Perhaps this is a pagan priest guarding the temple.  He holds a staff in each hand, whether for balance or protection is not clear.  What does seem clear to me is that you aren't moving past him without some sort of challenge.  That might be another aspect of this situation.  I need to challenge myself and see what doorway I wish to pass through next.  Maybe that's why I'm so hesitant.  Making a conscious  decision about my next step is much more intimidating than just lucking into something.  Actually I'm beginning to realize that accepting responsibility for my choices and actively making decisions that will steer those choices is a bit different.  It could also be reinforcing the fact that I need to balance my spiritual nature with my physical nature.  I have always been very comfortable with my intellectual side to the exclusion of the others.  Now is my change to fix that.

I don't like just charging ahead without some sort of plan.  I know from experience that when I don't plan things out, all that happens is I stumble along in the dark and just haphazardly manage to achieve things.  Whether it comes to my health or creating a diet plan or just planning out my week, I am more productive and successful when I plan things.  That just seems to be how my brain works.  Of course I have another side that resists being that organized and that is probably the balance I need to find - the balance between my preference for spontaneity and organization.  That is what I need to challenge myself to do.  Maybe that is one of the ways for me to reignite my energy and ambition about things.