"After taking some personal risks, you may be feeling the need to put intense energy into being with yourself and discovering your self.  You're so committed to your own growth and direction that you may be unaware of the rest of the world.  You may be strongly introverted now, or you may be exploring a part of your personality in a secret or hidden manner." Gail Fairfield

Knights symbolize protection, strength, ambition and questing.  Fire is associated with inspiration, energy, passion, feeling, enterprise, ambition, matters pertaining to the "spark of life", and the element of fire.  Typically this card refers to someone who is energetic and enthusiastic about life, heedlessly charging ahead in search of adventure and excitement.  The Knight of Wands can either represent qualities you possess or someone else in your life who possesses these qualities. 

Rachel Pollack:  Awareness of nature, confidence, ability to love and help others without losing our own sense of self.  Unconditional love.  Knowledge gained through love of others or love of nature.

There is something very engaging and adorable about the Prince of Wands confidence.  He exhibits that youthful energy and exuberance that hasn't yet been beaten down by reality.  He still believes he can conquer the world.  He charges ahead full of enthusiasm and confidence - oh to be that young again.  The Knower of Trees offers a very different view of this energy.  She has a tree full of red blossoms growing in her core.  Its roots seem to connect with the stream flowing along the bottom of the card.  Green leaves are sprouting all over her body.  She is at one with nature and secure in her connection.  The sprouts seem like her confidence and enthusiasm just springing out all over the place.  It is her potential and her ability to grow and expand her horizons and experiences.

Hmm, unconditional love - what a concept.  Actually, all sarcasm aside, I've been fairly lucky to have quite a bit of unconditional love in my life.  Despite whatever other flaws they might have had as parents, I always felt I had their unconditional love.  My husband loves me unconditionally too.  That's probably a lot more than some folks have experienced.

There is also a part of me that knows deep down (in my core) that I need to reconnect with this energy.  I need to find things about which I am passionate and pursue them.  If and when I start looking for a job, I need to find one that will allow me to be like this Prince of Wands and Knower of Trees - full of potential and energy.  I don't need to find a job that I can sleepwalk through.  I don't need to find a job that doesn't require me to stretch my muscles and build new skills.  If that's the case then why not just get a job as a management trainee at Cumberland Farms (actually who am I kidding that would be a stretch for me too).

So now that I know this and accept it, what do I do about it.  Wands energy may be good for doing things but I need to take some time to actually plan things out and lately I have not been so good at working on plans.  I guess I'll have to take it one step at a time.