Aces symbolize beginnings, the start of something new and the seed of new growth.  Wands are associated with inspiration, energy, passion, feeling, enterprise, ambition, matters pertaining to the "spark of life", and the element of fire.  Skill; creation; the beginning of a project, enterprise, idea, or invention.  Enthusiasm; initiative; energy; the joy of life; sexual vigor; conception; a journey 

"You are planting the seeds for a new public identity.  You're beginning to create a new name for yourself to take on a new role in life." - Gail Fairfield

I can feel the changes slowly occurring inside me.  It might not happen quickly but I am slowly and surely beginning to emerge from this cocoon in which I've buried myself.  I've hidden long enough.  For a long time I clung to the idea that I could support myself by becoming a professional Tarot reader.  It's quite possible that I could eventually achieve this goal if the situation was different, but as things stand right now that would not be such a great idea.  I really do need to find something that offers benefits.  With the construction industry in the shape it's in, it might be a while before hubby returns to work.  And I'm okay with that.  What I realize is that I need to find a position that does more than just pay me what I need to earn.  I need to find a job that fulfills me on a number of levels.  If I wanted a job I could just phone in then I might as well become a well paid secretary or administrative assistant at a corporation.  Not that there is anything wrong with either of those positions, if that is what you enjoy doing.  In my case it would be just for the money and eventually I'd get bored.

So what will re-ignite my spark and get me excited and enthusiastic again?  I'm not completely sure.  I have learned that I really enjoy provided people with training and teaching.  That is certainly an option to explore.  I also like working in the non-profit field.  I like feeling as though I've made a difference in someone's life in some small way.  I have to admit that I found fundraising a very interesting topic too.  I'm not sure if that is something I will ever explore further but I will definitely have more interest in it wherever I find myself.

So I guess the message the Tarot is offering me today is that it's time to find a new career path for myself.  I need to get more focused and serious about it.  It's time to emerge from my house/shell and start to explore some new options and new opportunities.  I can't hide forever, it's just not in my nature.