Queens are associated with inner and personal control, competency, maturity, introspection, self-awareness, nurturance, healing and fulfillment.  Cups are associated with the element of water, with emotions, love, pleasure in life, matters pertaining to the unconscious, intuition and inner planes.  The Queen of Cups may be devoted to the needs of family and friends, and at her best shows a radiant, compassionate heart.  She is intuitive and able to tune in to the emotional needs of others.  She's a dreamer who can turn her imaginings into creative activity.  Reversed she can symbolize someone who indulges in emotional outbursts and a martyr complex in a quest for sympathy.  She can also become manipulative on an emotional level if she is unable to channel her energies into a productive outlet.

"Reversed:  Your psychic or intuitive abilities are well-developed and may feel like second nature to you.  You have reached some level of maturity and competency in dealing with your unconscious awareness.  You can rely on your intuitive inspiration." - Gail Fairfield

"You're unpretentious and comfortable with yourself.  Your spiritual path flows in all areas of your life." - Power Tarot

Ah, my new old friend the Queen of Cups.  She is stalking me.  Considering how long I have managed to evade her I have to give her points for her persistence.  In her quiet, resolute way she refused to just disappear.  She quietly snuck up on me and keep peeking out to let me know she was still around.  She reminds me of a shadow that lingers around the edges of your vision but disappears when you try to see it head on.  In her quiet, gentle yet inescapable way, she would not let me go until I learned to embrace her.

We're still working on our relationship.  I have a long history of mistrust and dislike of this tolerant Queen.  Luckily she is smiling at my folly and just patiently waiting for me to come to my senses.  When she thinks it's necessary, she'll overwhelm me with water and wash away my doubts and fears.  And ultimately what lies at all of my mistrust and dislike are fears.  Fears that others won't like me.  Fears that others will take advantage of me.  Fears that others will hurt me.  My defenses against just these types of occurrences were well-built and well defended but like a stream flowing through a mountain, the Queen of Cups slowly and patiently wore away the granite of my fortress.

In the process she has exposed me to a whole new realms.  One where I can trust myself and listen to that inner voice, that intuitive voice and not feel that I have to explain it all away in a rational manner.  She has shown me that embracing my inner Queen of Cups does not mean denying or distancing myself from my inner Queen of Swords.  She has taught me that incorporating this energy will enrich my life not deplete it.  I realize this will be a lifelong journey for me because I have to unlearn much of what my early life taught me but I look forward to the dance.  I have a feeling she will teach me that before I can truly love and connect with others on an emotional level, first I have to love and connect with myself.