Queens are associated with inner and personal control, competency, maturity, introspection, self-awareness, nurturance, healing and fulfillment. Wands are usually associated with the element of fire, inspiration, energy, passion, feeling, enterprise, ambition, matters pertaining to the "spark of life".  They can refer to the growth and awareness of the self.  Wands are focused on discovering your true self, apart from others.  The Queen of Wands shows a self-assured, powerful woman. She is confident in her abilities and able to wield her power without beating others, although she is capable of doing this if she must. The Queen of Wands is also very comfortable and at home with her sexual nature, her passionate side that seeks a fiery union in her life.  

"You've reached a high level of personal integrity and maturity within the role you're playing.  You are clear on who you are and nothing can take that from you.  You are self-confident in most all situations.  You are content with your general process of growth and you have a sense of continuing development.  A feeling of maturity and confidence radiates from you as you function in this role or identity." - Gail Fairfield

"I gotta be me, I gotta be me.  Who else can I be?"  I've always felt drawn to the Queen of Wands.  She's my favorite Queen in the Tarot followed closely by the Queen of Swords.  So on the surface, it's ironic that the best way to live today to its fullest is to be myself.  On a deeper level, I think this card is telling me to reconnect with this side of myself.  I've noticed that I seem to have lost contact with my inner Queen of Wands lately.  It's as though I'm deliberately suppressing her because I'm afraid of what might happen if I release her energies.  With her good side comes her shadow side and right now her shadow side might lead to my doing or saying things that could complicate an emotionally volatile situation.  

I'm trying to be very supporting and focused on family needs right now.  Don't get me wrong, I'm not perfect and there are times when I really resent having to give so much of my time and energy to this matter but I do it because it's the right thing to do.  On the other hand it means I don't have as much energy left to devote to more selfish pursuits.  I really can't afford to be too selfish right now because it would lead to a rift that would help no one.  So I'm keeping a tight rein on my Queen of Wands.  

At the same time I am noticing that I lack the fire and energy for a lot of things I used to enjoy.  This may be the result of changes in myself or it may be that by suppressing my Queen of Wands energy I'm also dousing that fire and passion.  Needless to say that does not seem to be a good thing.  So what I have to learn is how to balance these two needs - my need to be supporting and nurturing to my family and my need to be independent and pursue my interests.  I can't subsume my true self to such a degree that my inner fire is quenched, that would drive me crazy.  So I have to keep that inner fire burning and feed it regularly.  I know I can do it but I have to remind myself occasionally.