Kings are associated with control, mastery, discipline and resolve.  Cups represent emotions, love, pleasures in life; matters pertaining to the unconscious, intuition and the inner planes, and the element of water.  The King of Cups is both a romantic, loving person who does not let his emotions lead him down the wrong path.  He has enough life experience to know that while he desires love and pleasure in life sometimes that can lead to unhealthy choices.  

"An emotion has run its course and is no longer operative in your life.  This could mean that a relationship is ending.  This old pattern has become a habit that is no longer meaningful or satisfying.  Nothing can be done now to retain or reclaim the vigor of the original feelings.  You need to make some real or symbolic gesture that shows you're reached a point of closure or completion around this feeling or relationship.  You may need to fully experience your grief and mourn its passing." - Gail Fairfield.

My first response upon seeing this question is that there is not sorrow unexpressed within me.  Then I drew the King of Cups and realized in some ways it was supporting my reaction because this is often seen as a card of the healer or counselor.  So whatever this sorrow might have been, the King of Cups suggests that I have already healed or I am in the process of healing from it.  As I've become more comfortable and at ease with my Cups nature, I have also learned to heal from certain resentments, pains and hurts that I've carried for longer than I realized.  

On a deeper level I think the King of Cups is also trying to remind me that at one time I wanted to be a healer.  I earned a MA in psychology many years ago.  My first job after graduating was as a therapeutic recreation specialist, although in effect I functioned as the guidance counselor in a recreation center.  I really enjoyed that experienced.  It could be very frustrating but I like to think that I helped some of these kids learn some effective tools for dealing with the challenges and difficulties they were experiencing.  However once I got promoted I no longer used those skills on a professional level.

When I first started using Tarot cards I hoped and intended to use some of those counselor skills but over time I've realized that isn't always possible.  I have been very resistant on some level to putting myself out there as a professional Tarot reader.  I'm not sure what the resistance is but it definitely exists.  It's very passive but strong and regardless of what I actually say, my actions speak louder than my words in this case.  And when I have done readings, I've noticed a strong resistance in the querents towards engaging on that level.  Perhaps it's my own resistance being projected back at me.  I get the clients I am ready to work with at this time.  If I'm not ready to work with the cards at a deeper level then why would I want clients who are seeking that type of reading.  I'm coming to realize that if I want to work with clients seeking more counseling-type readings, I have to become comfortable with providing that type of reading.  I have often stated that I'm not a healer but on some level I am and I want to be one.  What I fear is that I'll fail at helping someone heal.  Of course the reality is that within the format of a Tarot reading, if the querent is not ready to heal there is nothing I can do for them.  Perhaps that is where the sorrow lies.

I have known for years that I could never work as a substance abuser counselor because I have often expressed contempt for drug addicts and alcoholics, seeing it as a moral failing or lack of willpower rather than as a disease.  Over time and after watching shows such as Intervention and Celebrity Rehab, I have realized that many substance abusers become helpless in the face of their addiction.  Even if they truly want to break free of their addictive behavior, it is very challenging.  And I understand that part of that is due to the fact that when you have to face the wreckage you've left in your wake from your substance abuse, you have to face the pain you've caused others.  That can be a very difficult reality to face.  It's much easier to lose oneself in the drugs or alcohol rather than deal with the pain and devastation you've caused.  It is probably why so many who complete rehab end up relapsing numerous times.  I don't know if I could work with this population knowing that many are doomed to failure.  That I couldn't heal them.  And that is my arrogance.  If I can't heal them then how am I a healer?  This is a question I need to come to terms with inside myself before I can do anything for anyone else.  And that is my unexpressed sorrow - that I can't heal all those that I wish to help.

Looking at the Osho Zen card, with its keyword of healer, I am struck by how much it resembles a Reiki attunement.  This is something else that I had pursued and let fall by the wayside.  Perhaps that is another aspect of this card's message to me - it's time to actually use those healing skills that I do have instead of letting them atrophy and go to waste.  It might be time to return to daily self-attunements and become more active in Reiki healing circles and eventually pursue my Level II training.