5 of Imps/Wands (Halloween & Dark Grimoire) Where am I battling for dominance?


Wands are associated with the element of fire as well as with inspiration, energy, intuition and creative imagination. This suit often reveals something you "need to light a fire under". The number 5 represents that added something that brings the situation out of balance again. It represents the struggle and challenge of inner and outer growth. This card can represent inspired chaos and freeing your expression and energy.
"You are being challenged to adapt and grow. You are adjusting the way you present yourself to others. You could be experiencing an identity crisis. You might be getting some feedback from the environment that challenges you to reconsider the role you're playing and make some adjustments to it." - Gail Fairfield
Those little imps are getting themselves into mischief. They seem to be hitting each other with sticks but not with any true force or malice. It's almost as though they are playing a game - one that is observed by the small black cat in the lower left hand corner. On the Dark Grimoire card two figures seem to be blinded by a brilliant white light emanating from a sphere in the center. Whether they are reaching for the sphere or backing away from it in fear is unclear. Perhaps the sphere was a power drawn by one figure to offer protection from the second figure.
On both cards there is a sense of struggle and challenge but they do not appear to be life-threatening. The cards could either suggest a game or a power struggle; battles for dominance of one type or other. Perhaps one of the figures on the Dark Grimoire 5 of Wands is a student trying to show the teacher that he is now as powerful or even more powerful than she is; the student has become the master.
This has been a recurring theme for me lately - accepting my own mastery at various tasks but specifically when it comes to being a Tarot reader. It's as though I'm afraid to try to take precedence in this situation. It may time for me to accept that if I have reached a journeyman level of skill as a Tarot reader, it does not take away from anyone else. It's not about limitations and restrictions. My success does not mean someone else must fail. It simply means that I've accepted that I can put myself forward as someone with a certain skill set.
I am dealing with a similar situation as the completion of my MPA draws near. I did well at my classes and enjoyed the process but whenever I talk about it, I try to downplay the achievement. It's as though I'm more comfortable with the struggle than with moving forward to the next stage of victory. My battle for dominance is within myself. I have to learn to accept that it's time for me to move forward; time to accept my laurel wreath and celebrate my victory. Then I can move forward and allow myself to enjoy the experience.


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