Chariot R (All Hallows & Wormweird) - Is it time to hold on or move on?


The Chariot symbolizes being totally in tune with a fast-moving process or event; aware of the tolerances and limitations of the situation and understanding instinctively how to act and react in order to direct or affect movement from within. It can be about immersing yourself in the situation so you can exert control over it and direct its course. The more immersed you are in the transition or growth process, the more involved you are with the energies and harmonies of the change, the better you'll be able to see and direct them.
"Negative: Becoming immersed in the rapid pace of change and transition creates stress and tension for you right now. Things may be moving too fast for you. Being in the midst of it is not the best way to direct events. You need to get outside of the situation.
Reversed: Your own beliefs, attitudes, or emotions are changing and transforming at a rapid rate. You are so involved with these changes that you don't feel like you're consciously controlling them. In fact, the more attuned you are to the transition process, the more you're able to maneuver and direct it." - Gail Fairfield
Both cards show a ghostly image moving forward into another plane of existence. The ghastly green ghost on the Wormweird Chariot is a skeletal figure wearing a top hat whose face seems to be etched in an agony of pain and despair. The absinthe appears to have saturated his bones turning them a luminescent, eerie green. Perhaps it has also soaked his soul and drugged his spirit with its hallucinatory essence. He is trying to hold himself together; to keep from being torn apart by the energies he willingly unleashed in his body, mind and spirit. However he does not appear to be having much success.
On the All Hallows Chariot a ghostly coach is being steered down the road by a spectral driver. Is he in search of a passenger or has he already picked up one? He seems sure of his path and at ease with both his carriage and his mission. There is no hesitation or unsureness.
Of course reversed this card suggests that such confidence and composure is not being displayed right now. I have been feeling hesitant and rather stuck in place. I know I steer the course of my own life but what does one do when you're not even sure where you want to end up? I'm stuck in place and not sure how to move forward. It's not even a question of which path to follow or which option to choose; it's about not even seeing a path. I feel like a ghostly skeleton - neither alive nor dead; stuck in some sort of limbo. I'm paralyzed and I'm not sure why.
Actually maybe I am sure why but I'm afraid to take that first step down the path. So many factors, oracles and readings have pointed in the same direction but it's one that terrifies me. The strong message I've been getting from the Universe for some time now is that I need to find a way to be my own boss. I need to create a plan that works for me and allows me to support myself as well as express myself. I know that I love training, teaching and presenting. I'm a good presenter (maybe even very good) and when I'm often told that I convey information in a fun way that stays with the student. I'm engaging and personable. This isn't bragging, it's simply feedback I've gotten from peers and participants. I'm also getting strong messages that it's time for me to start putting myself forward as a Tarot reader. I know I've got the skills and knowledge, what I lack is the confidence. It's pretty ironic that I have no problem reading for people I know are knowledgeable about a(such as at Readers Studio) but reading for the general public terrifies me.
In light of this I think the message here is that it's time to move beyond my fears and paralysis. I find it fascinating that in many ways I can be rather brave and fearless (Gods know I've never been afraid of putting my foot directly in my mouth on occasion), but something about exposing myself in this arena freezes me in my tracks. I need to leave this useless and pointless fear and paralysis behind me and move forward. I'm letting my fears and self-doubts stop me from exploring a side of myself and an area that I have loved for a number of years. Why give the fear that much power. It's time to lay that ghost to rest and take up the reigns to steer my course along with unexplored path. The road ahead is beckoning if I have the confidence to take it.


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