10 is the number of perfection, completion and wholeness. It can mean something is over but not finished and about to begin again.  Wands are associated with inspiration, energy, passion, feeling, enterprise, ambition, matters pertaining to the "spark of life", and the element of fire.  Traditionally this card symbolizes a time of burdens being released and accepting our limitations.  

"You realize that you need to make some choices about the ways you view yourself.  You can decide to re-invest in the self-image that you've been affirming or you can take some risks with how you see yourself now and reach for a deeper sense of self-worth." - Gail Fairfield

"A need to backtrack.  A project may need to be reorganized or reworked, or you may come to the recognition that your entire life's work needs to take a new direction or start new.  The 10 of Wands reversed may also suggest a need to draw some personal boundaries to limit the amount of responsibility you are willing to take on.  Evaluate which of your burdens serve personal goals, and which have been imposed by family and society.  Successful perseverance and the motivational nature of the Wands cards favor inner-directed objectives." - Janina Renee

Reinvention and searching for a new way to view myself pretty much describe my current state of mind.  I'm tired of feeling as though I'm carrying the burdens of the world on my shoulders (okay to be fair it's more like the burdens of my world but still).  All those sticks, wands, rods, whatever are starting to get very heavy and I can feel my knees buckling under their weight.  What can I do to get rid of these burdens, or at least put them down for a little while?

Looking at the Celtic Wisdom Quest of Skill card I see Mabon at the center, surrounded by a blackbird, stag, owl, eagle and salmon.  All these creatures helped Culhwch on his quest to find the location of Mabon ap Modron who had been missing for longer than human memory.  Mabon is in the fetal position and seems surrounded by something that resembles the birth sac.  

Maybe at the core of this issue for me today is that I need to follow my own trail and get to the heart of who I really am and what I want to become.  Maybe I'm in a fetal stage of my own right now.  My current path is becoming too heavy and unmanageable so what can I do to lighten it.  Or perhaps it's simply that my current path has reached its end.  That particular journey is completed and now it's time to find a new path, a new source of inspiration, energy and creativity.  Of course creativity has often been a challenge for me.  I have never felt especially creative but maybe that's because I am limited in my own definition of creativity.

The need to re-invent and reorganize resonates with me right now.  I think in order to find wholeness and completeness within myself I need to find a new spark.  It's time to work with my limitations and boundaries and find new ways to express myself.  I can't do it all, no matter how determined or stubborn I am.  And maybe it's time to ask for some help with some of these burdens too.  The reality is that others might be willing and able to help but don't realize it's needed.  If I don't ask other to help with one or two of these burdens then it isn't fair to complain because I'm doing it all on my own.  Hmm, many thoughts to ponder today.