The first thought that popped into my head when I saw the Hudes 4 of Cups is the song Gethsame from Jesus Christ Superstar "take this cup away from me."  I can certainly sympathize with that feeling.  Right now I am finishing up my tenure as president of a professional organizational and I'm tired of it.  I can't wait for my term to finish because lately it has become less enjoyable and more toxic.  The negative emotions that flow beneath each meeting are wearing me down.  And I don't like it.

The Blake 4 of Music offers "a sense of relaxation, play and shared feelings in this card for the bard entertaining his peers while the children do the same in their own way.  This card can represent reflective nostalgia or "remembrance of things past".  In the creative process this is when you relax into playfulness, whimsically experiment with improvisation or reminiscence about past experiences."

This card represents happy times and joyful memories.  It almost easy to imagine the two children represent a memory of the bard's or are the actualization of one of his songs.  This card shows both the joy and emotional satisfaction we feel when we are sharing our gifts with like-minded people and our memories of similar times in our childhood.  This is a very different sense that the one I get in the Hudes 4 of Cups.

What I think both cards share is a sense of choice.  I can choose to accept the cup or not.  I can chose to play my own music and sing to my own song.  I don't have to dance to anyone else's tune if I chose not to do so.  Of course knowing this in my mind and feeling it in my  heart are two different things.  So perhaps what I need to focus on is trusting my heart to guide me in the right direction.  I want to be more comfortable trusting my instincts and not over-intellectualizing everything.  This is an internal process that only I can do.  Just as no one can force me to dance to their tune, no one can force me to dance to my own either.